Found out I’m having a child, is my life over or has it begun?

The questions I ask became common amongst everyone.

Stunned some might say, as I lay thinking about my initial reaction which was in total dismay.

Couldn’t understand how it happened yet the logic kicked in and kicked me in my face.

Protection was safe and I turned my head without a doubt.

Look at where we are now.

Sad? Angry? Scared beyond belief?

Imagine what my girl thought when she spoke to me about this state, it was unique.

Thought of all others except my own, thought of the struggles my life will hold.

Never stopped and thought about her.

Disgusted, sickened by the response I raved.

Caved in she felt and no other option was dealt.

Death must serve but the scar will forever haunt her.